Lost of freedom is near
Mood: Annoyed
Music: Rydia (FFIV, Project Majestic Mix version)
Well, my mom is coming back today from being gone for 2 weeks. Meaning me, and my older brother and sister had the house to ourselves since then, was alot of fun =P, even more since most of it I was out of school more than half of the time. Although it ended WAY too short, and now I gotta go back it the everyday listening of my mom bitch and complain about how my life sucks -_-;;.
Granted, I'm sure everyone hates there parnets one way or another, and I'm no diferent. But I just want to shoot myself sometimes by how she "thinks" I'm wasting my life doing..... "nothing". Which is not actually true. Ok, so I don't get really good grades, do I really care? No. Do I want to have a job that I actually like? Yes. But I seriously don't think knowing half of the stuff you get from school is really going be "useful" for that job, whatever it may be. So I really don't see what's be big deal about having to know so many things =/.
Which brings up another thing, my mom "assumes" that I should be the best at everything BUT the things I like, mostly sports, which I hate most of all. First she said I should do soccer (this was a LONG time ago btw, like 8-10 years ago) because she "thought" I was good at kicking. Years later she thinks I should do basketball because I'm tall and "liked" shooting baskets, yet I only did that because I nothing else to do and I liked being alone ever since 6th grade (note: In CA, 6th grade isn't middle school yet). And so worth.
There was only once when I did something she mentioned, which was being in a school band. It was fun for the 1st 3 years, then I realised music wasn't my thing anymore, it never really was. So I finally quit this year. Of course my mom was pissed, because I could have gone to Eurpope and Asia, etc. But what's the point of going somewhere but you can't enjoy it because your on some one else's schedule. With mom on the other hand could do anything if she went along with the trip. Which made me feel like I was going to be used, which was also why I quit.
There is also some other things, but I've writen enough today =/.
Posted by clefiea
at 3:37 PM PDT